When I posted a sneak peek of today’s post on Instagram yesterday, I thought to myself, “This is all over the place.” The funny thing about it is that the pic I posted really says a lot about my life, and I’m definitely all over the place.
Some people look at me and think I have it all together. Hey, I’d like to tell you that I have things all together, but if I told you that, it would only be referring to that part of me that drifts off into this imaginary place that no one else knows exists. The place where I’m actually perfect and do everything right. Unfortunately, I’m only a perfectionist at heart. That’s something that can really bite you.
The reality is that I’m merely a person who sometimes finds myself getting in the way of God’s greater plan for my life, simply because I become so full of my own desires that I forget that perfect will has its hand on my many imperfections. So, all that being said…
My life doesn’t belong to me.
I belong to someone much greater than myself. When I’ve failed Him, His grace has given me strength to get up and try again. In times when I’ve lost my way, He’s the force that draws me back in. When I’m stubborn, He reminds me of how small I really am and how much greater He is. It’s He who owns me and sets the tone for my values and what I do in my life.
Then He gave my life more value.
When I married my husband, my life became joined with his. I was supposed to be a helper to this man, and I really had no idea what that meant at the time. I was to become “one” and to walk down a windy and uncertain path with him. At the beginning of the path, you’re eager to walk, but that path can become very windy (with hills and rocks).
But, on the path I was given more value.
I’ve been gifted 10 sweet (at least for the most part) children who I’m completely crazy about (or who make me crazy – sometimes that gets a little confusing). It’s not an easy job, but it’s my job, and I’m humbled that I was hand picked to be their mom. There are people who gawk and stare at us. There are people who make rude comments. However, the deal is that I believe that children are a blessing, and so I am extraordinarily blessed! But, as I said, it’s not always easy.
Sometimes I’ve needed a little time to do what I like.
I started a craft. It was therapeutic. I crafted candles in jars. Then, I gave away those candles because when you keep making things, well, you either have to give them away or buy a storage room. So I gave them to friends and family who convinced me that I needed to sell them.
Therapy turned business.
I began Everything Dawn, which expanded into Everything Dawn Bakery Candle Treats. I began to create fake foods in the form of props and candles, and I taught (well, I’m still teaching) my children how to be entrepreneurs. Three of them are well on their way with another two working behind the scenes with me.
So, who am I?
I am Dawn, a woman who does many things, not through my own strength, but through the strength of Christ. Imperfect, but grace covered. As I continue to write about elements of my life in this blog, my hope is to encourage someone else who’s imperfect and could use a friend.